9/01/2011

MY HEART


Elijah Benzyeshua Grunsen Purba

Son,i'm proud of you! Pepatah melayu berbunyi: Dimana bumi dipijak, disitu langit dijunjung. God bless Indonesia!

8/30/2010

HIGHER



When dreaming I'm guided to another world
Time and time again
At sunrise I fight to stay asleep
'Cause I don't want to leave the comfort of this place
'Cause there's a hunger, a longing to escape
From the life I live when I'm awake
So let's go there
Let's make our escape
Come on, let's go there
Let's ask can we stay?

Can you take me Higher?
To a place where blind men see
Can you take me Higher?
To a place with golden streets

Although I would like our world to change
It helps me to appreciate
Those nights and those dreams
But, my friend, I'd sacrifice all those nights
If I could make the Earth and my dreams the same
The only difference is
To let love replace all our hate
So let's go there
Let's make our escape
Come on, let's go there
Let's ask can we stay?

Can you take me Higher?
To a place where blind men see
Can you take me Higher?
To a place with golden streets

So lets go there, lets go there,
Come on, lets go there
Lets ask can we stay?

Up high I feel like I'm alive for the very first time
Set up high I'm strong enough to take these dreams
And make them mine
Set up high I'm strong enough to take these dreams
And make them mine

Note: I just love this song.

8/24/2010

MANUAL BOOK OF LIFE

I have a friend who loves reading. He reads all kind of books, from logical to motivation, from linguistic to history. You name it, he is truly a book worm! one day he have a problem an ask for my advise.

I ask him; I thought you have read thousand of books.

He replied; Yes, i do..it doesn't precisely answered my need. Book are window to the world

Me; Yes, that i agree. But what are you looking for from those books?

He replied; I wanted to know about life, i want to know more and i want to upgrade my knowledge.

Me; does it answered your question about life?

He replied; Not really, sort of...

Me; Yes! book will upgrade you, open the world for you. When you buy new thing, what did you do first, especially electronic appliances?

He; I read the manual book..

Me; You are truly a brilliant! Do you know that our life is also written in a manual book, have you read it?

He; Got mah!

Me; Yalah! of course lah, have you read your Bible?

He; Yes, but it make me sleepy..it was bored to read.

Me; Haiya! the Bible is life's manual book, what is your problem? Name it, all answered in the Bible.

He; Yakah?

Me; Yalah...

He; How about if i wanted to choose for good life partner? Got kah?

Me; Read 2 Corinthians 6:14

He; Bible doesn't say about smoking..

Me; Who said? Read 1 Corinthians 6:12..

He; How about...

Me; Read if you want to know...

8/20/2010

WRONG OR RIGHT

It is just a decision we make, but why does it effect us for the rest of our life?

8/18/2010

I'M OUT OF WORDS

IT IS NOT ABOUT MYSELF ANYMORE........
IT IS ABOUT MY LOVE TO OTHERS........
IT IS ABOUT THE PRICE I HAVE TO PAY......

IF I CAN MAKE A CHOICE;
I WILL CHOOSE TO LIVE HAPPILY WITH THOSE I LOVE DEEPLY..
I WILL CHOOSE TO SECURE MYSELF AND NEGLECT OTHERS...
I WILL CHOOSE TO FOLLOW MY HEART DESIRES...

BUT I CAN'T;
BECAUSE IT IS NOT ABOUT ME ANYMORE.....
IT IS ABOUT MY LOVE TO OTHERS....
AND I'M OUT OF WORDS....
HOW CAN I REPAY HIS SACRIFICE FOR ME INSTEAD OF GIVING IT ALL TO HIM....
IT IS ABOUT JESUS LOVE FOR ME....

8/16/2010

HARMONI CINTA

This amazing song written by Melly Goeslaw was coloured by the luxurious of orchestra music. It was a fresh song which sang by very talented young singer Gita Gutawa. Listen to it and enjoy it as much as i do..

6/21/2010

URGENT MESSAGES.

Please read this testimonial from Ricardo Rid from Chile. Ricardo Rid was once working with Chile Laboratories, having a good-paid job but God has call him to left his job and serve The Lord. During his farewell dinner, about 2000 participants attended the dinner which shows that he have an important position in the company. Again, please read his testimonials " 8 hours in Heaven; An urgent Messages For Today's Church.

in Indonesia languages :www.insightsofgod.com/downloads/Ricardo_Cid_Indonesia.pdf

For English :http://spiritlessons.com/documents/Ricardo_Cid/Ricardo_Cid_8_Horas_en_el_Cielo_English.htm

For those who believe, please use this little time given by The Lord to get more intimate with HIM. Its is better for us to BELIEVE that Jesus was alive and HE want us to be saved! Because when the time really come, we was ready. It cost nothing but to believe and follow HIS words....

6/15/2010

WHAT I HAVE LEARNT

This year was my 29th years living on earth. What have i learnt on my ways? Many things!

Last time it was hard for me to understand why my parents scolded me for some small mistakes i have done.
Now, i always asked myself, why my little boy keep doing the same act though i have thought him that it was wrong.

Last time, all i want to do is play more, study less. Haha!!
Now, i just keep my mouth shut when my boy running here and there all day long and eat just a little bit.

Last time, i feel that i was so small and my teacher was the tallest among all.
Last month during school's reunion, i think we are taller and bigger among the teacher..hahaha

One things i regret the most, why on earth that no one ever wanted to tell me about the Love of Christ when i was still very young so that i will not done so much mistakes in my life and hurt those who loves me. Thanks God, now i know HIM...Good news is not for us to keep ourselves, it was to be spread to other so that they will feel the joy we feel.

6/14/2010

PEJALAI PULAI KE MENUA.















Bulan kemari kami menyanak nemuai ke menua. Pama lelak, bebai ke barang tapi dalam ati tang excited. Anakku kelebih agik, nyau kinding-kinding tudah bejalai ba airport, happy mai tudah baka nemu dirik di bai kami bejalai. Sebedau tuk nyau trauma anak sigatku nyak laban selalu ditinggal kami duai daddy iya maya bisi pengawa "out-station". Nya meh, tiap kali nganjung ngagai babysitter nyau rauh-rauh nyabak, takut kami enda ngambi iya lemai. Pintar mai anak diatu.

Pagi-pagi kami berangkat ari Tanjung Pinang 2 1/2 jam ngena feri ke Johor. Udahnya terus ngena teksi ke airport, enda nganti agi kami menyanak terus check-in laban cun-cun gak time boarding sekejap agik. Pejalai ngena bilun MAS cukup ok bagi aku, the staffs was polite and friendly. Anakku nyau enda nemu diau dalam bilun.

Datai ba airport Kuching, tambah excited agik kami. Balat panas menua. Bujang sigat kami turun ari bilun nyau ngena singlet aja, abis baju basah laban manchal dalam bilun.

Mayuh perubahan Kuching pedaku, mayuh shopping mall ka digaga. Manah gak pikirku, awak enda jauh-jauh urang shopping ke KL etc. Puas bejalai ba mall di Kuching, bujang sigat kami paling suka bejalai, baru datai ba rumah udah mai masuk kreta baru. Apuu..malam pun nyau enda entu ka tinduk, kerja ka bemain aja.

Sebedau pulai sempat gak kami nemuai ngagai aki & ini aku di Simunjan. Udah nyau ka 5 taun aku enda betemu ngau aki. On 1st Gawai kami menyadik enggau pasangan masing-masing mupuk ke Simunjan. Happy mai tudah seduai meda bala kami semua datai enggau bala icit seduai.

Well, cuti kali tuk have lots of meaning to me. Aku sempat join School Reunion SMTM Matang. Udah 13 taun lebih enda betemu, sekali betemu kerja ngakak-ngakak ketawa nundi pangan diri.

6/09/2010

HAL YANG BUAT AKU TERSENYUM

Ini hal yang buat aku selalu tersenyum.





Hari ini kayaknya mo nge-blog aja. Udah lama di tinggalin, now is the time to write again. Semua orang pasti punya suatu hal baik itu yang baik atau yang buruk, yang pasti itu adalah bahagian dari kehidupan. Hidup ini harus selalu sadar bahwa hari-hari itu harus kita jalani terus, sampai suatu waktu nafas berhenti. Hari ini yang kita hidupi adalah satu tingkat tangga kepada hari besok. Now a day, i realize that i've dream a lots, kayaknya harus cepat sadar deh. Waktu aku lihat ke belakang, what i've done! Apakah itu cukup berarti ato sekedar cukup demi menjalani hari yang harus dijalani.

Well, someone ask me..who can make you happy? Aku terpaku..emmm, mau jawab anakku, terkadang my boys annoy me, mau bilang suamiku, kayaknya dia belum cukup memberikan kebahgiaan buat aku. Yang bisa buat aku bahagia adalah aku sendiri! Orang bilang hanya Tuhan yang bisa membuat bahagia. Yah! kalo pribadi seseorang itu sendiri menolak kehadiran Tuhan dalam hidupnya, sama juga.

Hidup ini banyak yang munafik. Tapi Tuhan melihat jauh kedalaman hati, itulah yang harus selalu dipegang. AKu selalu mengajar diri untuk jujur dengan diri, jujur dengan bicara kerna apa yang kita tabur, selalunya akan kita tuai.

I have a friend, dia adalah teman dekat yang udah lama kukenali. Aku mengasihi dia sepertinya dia udah menjadi suatu bagian dalam hatiku yang ngak bisa aku hilangkan. Kita terikat erat dengan suatu ikatan yang aku nggak bisa jelasin. Mungkin karna doa ya...susah senang kita selalu bersama. Sepertinya dia udah mengenal aku dengan baik sekali kan? Tapi ngak, yang paling mengenal aku adalah aku dan DIA yang menciptakan aku. Bukan teman baikku sekalipun, bahkan bukan ibu yang melahirkan aku.

Menjadi pribadi itu nggak gampang. Yang penting jangan ego kali ya.

4/15/2010

TO END OR TO GO ON...

Its been a long time i didn't write any post here. Lot of things happen but it just hard to pour the story into writing, maybe i'm not writer's type of person. Thought come to me whether i end my blog, but today when i read and go through what i've wrote from the beginning, it makes me smile. I should go on..this blog can be a memory to me

Well, its almost 3 years i stayed in Indonesia. I wish to go to more places in Indonesia. I've learned many things here the living, foods, culture and many more, some amazed me and of course, some i dislike. Indonesia have a beautiful land that should be preserve.

Oh ya! I'm celebrating Gawai this year!! Will be back to my hometown on 22nd May. Bestnyerrrrr..

3/04/2010

MY PAPER ABOUT MARTIN LUTHER..THE CONCLUSION


Luther, tanpa ragu ia menggali kebenaran Kitab Suci. Dengan semangat dan keberadaannya yang lantang Luther dengan dibantu oleh beberapa rekan kerjanya mendongkrak terus kepercayaan atas kebenaran yang ia pegang.1 Dengan rasa kekurangan dalam diri akan iman dan rasa takut serta cinta yang amat besar akan Allah, Luther menggali dan mencari kebenaran tentang Allah dengan segenap hati. Tidak pernah terbayang apa yang berada dihadapannya. Mungkin saat itu juga Luther tidak pernah menyangka namanya akan dikenang dari zaman ke zaman oleh karena keberaniannya mengungkapkan kebenaran yang ia yakini.Yakni, merubah sejarah dan memberi dampak kepada iman Kristen, pola berfikir serta menjadi suatu titik perkembangan doktrinal gereja terbesar.2 Dalam buku “The Moody Handbook Of Theology” Paul Enns menulis:

Luther meninggalkan legasi teologis yang sangat banyak: ia mengajarkan bahwa hanya sakramen baptisan dan Perjamuan Tuhan yang sah; ia menulis banyak buku, menantang gereja Roma dan membuat buku katekismus sendiri; ia memberikan gereja beberapa himne yang agung, seperti “A Mighty Fotress’, ia mendirikan sistem pendidikan, mengajarkan orang-orang untuk membaca Alkitab. 3

Zaman dan Tahun pasti terus berganti, kemajuan bangkit dari kemajuan, modenisasi semakin menapak di dunia, begitupun pola pikir manusia akan Tuhan. Orang-orang akan terus mengali dan mengali, coba untuk mengungkap kebenaran demi kebenaran akan hakiki dunia ini kendatipun jutaan ungkapan akan kebenaran sudah tertulis, diucapkan malah diperdebatkan. Usaha demi usaha akan tumbuh laksana tunas baru yang tumbuh dari pepohonan untuk membahasakan iman yaitu iman yang berkaitan dengan pribadi yang Maha Esa. 4 Sebagai manusia yang percaya, kita hanya bisa berpegang bahwa keselamatan hanya ada didalam Yesus Kristus dan Allah yang kita sembah dan percaya adalah pribadi yang tidak terbatas. Semoga tulisan-tulisan yang begitu banyak, reformasi-reformasi kekristenan yang telah ada serta pemikiran-pemikiran ramai tokoh, teolog membuat kita semakin mencintai, mengasihi, mengerti dan memahami pekerjaan dan maksud kehendak Tuhan yang Maha untuk kita, makhluk kecil yang diberikan anugrah dengan bisa berfikir dengan rasional.


ELIJAH WITH WALLS ICE CREAM





He was so into ice-cream and always make me do extra laundry..

1/11/2010

NEW DAY HAS COME..

Its a new year!, new day but an old life to live for..hehe..lets started this new year with new motivation, new strength, new vision. This is the year of God's miracle...see the world through heart and always aware of what is going on around us. Have so much things to do through this year..one important event is.."balik kampung".

Actually i have so many photos to upload..hopefully i have time to do some upload. till then....

12/16/2009

THE NOTES.....

New year just in the corner. Feels like a year passed by a blinking of eyes. A lots of thing happen within this blessed year...happy, sad, joy. My baby, he can walks by himself by now. He can understand certain words we say, he was the biggest blessing for me and my hubby's life.

I admit, i was exhausted by working, studying and taking care of my family at the same time..but, through all of that i know and i understand....actually i have a complete life..what more can i ask from God?I have a cute charming son, i have a kind husband, i have great job and i upgrade myself by studying. Such a grace from God.

TO ALL..MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

10/15/2009

MIX

Its feel like 1 year or what i didn't up date my blog..hows everyone?. I have no idea of what i'm going to write now. Perhaps a bit of update news of what is happening around me.

1. My baby has turn 1 year on 5th October. Now, he can walks 6-7 steps..i'm waiting for the latest progress today. He like to plays with empty coca-cola bottles..can somebody tell me, is that alright? He like to see insects and very kind with animals..i hope so. This morning, he was so happy when he saw a frog in front of our house.

2. Raining almost everyday in Tanjungpinang. Tapi yang ngelu pala..selalu gak black-out..i just don't understand in the year of millennium..agik black-out ..

3. Theology- really give headache but make my knowledges richer.

4. Stitch- remember on my previous post, i write about my new hobby, i almost done with one big project..Name of the Lord.."Panggilan-panggilan nama Yesus".

5. Errrr...my work was loaded

9/10/2009

Theology...

New chapter in my book of life. Its been a long time i let my blog not update..sory wai. hehe..new news for now is i'm doing my first Degree in Theology..what a tough but really interesting field to go into. Make me fall deeper in love to our great Lord. Well, pray for me that i have strength to finish my study...well, why i choose Theology? Because i love this field and i hope with what i get will blessed other and bring they more into love with Lord.

8/31/2009

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY, MALAYSIA!

Happy National Day to all my Malaysian friends. Lord bless our loving land with His grace...Malaysia merdeka dalam ekonomi, merdeka dalam perpaduan kaum, merdeka dalam pembangunan dan merdeka dari penjajah. I love Malaysia...tanah tumpah darahku..wei, so emosional but i really appreciate my country.

8/05/2009

WORK

On the 9th, last July, we were celebrating "an evening with Yayasan Pintu Gerbang Kasih". It was a simple ceremony and the main purpose was to give an appreciation to all the student that is under our "scholarship program". And it was my first time to manage this kind of ceremony but it is a honor to me. Truly, all the while when i was thinking of the program for the day, it was tiring. But at the moment i saw those students went to the stage to get their reward i feel very satisfy. The scholarship maybe not much but i believe it help the students a bit. It is true when people said " We will feel more satisfy in giving hand for someone in-need rather than getting richer"...what do you think?



At the right-end is the big boss.

E.J UPDATES...MY CUTE WATERBOY

Every morning, he wake up at about 6.15 a.m, and thing he loves most was...BATH

During sunday service at church.

7/17/2009

LATEST BOMBING IN INDONESIA....

Pengeboman terbaru yang terjadi di Jakarta memang mengegarkan seluruh Indonesia. Pemgeboman ini yang terjadi serentak di 2 hotel 5 bintang itu membuahkan berbagai rasa di semua golongan rakyat Indonesia. Termasuk aku yang tinggal udah hampir 2 tahun di Indonesia. I am pure Malaysian and i love Malaysia...and i love Indonesia too. AKu juga merasakan betapa hancur hati rakyat Indonesia melihat kejadian ini...di tengah-tengah kebahagian menyambut team MU yang bakal beraksi di gelanggang Bung Karno. My heart was broke when i saw Mr. President talk to the media this morning, i can feel his sadness and disappointments. Indonesia udah mau melangkah setapak demi setapak menuju kemajuan setara dengan negara yang membangun lainnya.

Tapi pertanyaannya..kok ada orang kayak gini yang suka akan kehancuran. What was in their mind?

The truth is..dunia ini nggak akan semakin membaik. Hari-hari semakin sulit, semakin pintarnya manusia, semakin hancurnya bumi. Orang udah lupa akan Tuhan, udah lupa akan kemanusiaan. Well...bagi kita yang mengerti..yuk! kita cuba lakukan yang lebih baik setiap hari, lakukan yang benar pada zaman kita. Untuk bangsa kita, untuk anak-anak kita, supaya satu hari nanti...generasi kita tidak nggak akan menyalahkan kita yang hidup pada hari ini. Lastly..Takut akan Tuhan itu adalah permulaan dari kegala kepintaran. God Bless.

6/18/2009

CROSS STITCH

Remember that i blog about my new hobby last time..currently, i finished 4 cross stitch and 1 are still going on. This is one of my finished project.

E.J UPDATES

Elijah was 8 ++ months by now and he can do lots. He can play hide and seek...but he only know to seek, he don't know how to hide. He has 4 teethes and really like to play with an orange, maybe because he like the bright colour. Well, enjoy the pictures...

Playing hide and seek...








6/15/2009

MANOHARA..MY OPINION

Lets try my Indonesian language. Rasanya semua udah tau critanya si cantik Manohara. She young, beautiful, very gentle and kind. Banyak temen2 disini yang nanya gimana reaksiku sebagai rakyat Malaysia yang tinggal di Indonesia terhadap kasus-kasus kayak gini, yang melibatkan dua negara. Nggak tau ya kalu di Malaysia berita Manohara ini gmana, kalu di Indonesia sendiri, you can hear about her almost everyday in every local TV station.

Kalau menurut aku, satu sisi aku sih kagum dengan Manohara, she pretty, young dan cara dia ngomong itu santun sekali orangnya. Untuk memberi komentar soal dia dianiaya oleh suaminya, Tengku Temenggong Kelantan,Tengku Muhammad Fakhry Petra , aku sih peribadi nggak bisa nebak siapa yang benar dan salah. Yang pasti, di atas manusia itu ada Tuhan. Dan ada undang-undang yang bisa membantu memperjuangkan hak-hak kita andainya kita teraniaya. As a Malaysian, aku nggak support Tengku kalu emank dia bersalah, tapi aku juga nggak support Manohara kerna setiap apa yang Mano perkatakan harus ada buktinya. Nggak ada manusia di dunia ini layak mendapat penganiyaan. Dan kita punya hukum yang bisa kita percaya. Biarlah hukum itu bergerak, segala sesuatu pasti ada waktunya toh. Yang kesalnya, kadang-kadang kes kayak gini bikin orang tuh jadi obsesi, sampe anti negara itu dan negara ini...sebenarnya nggak perlu kayak gitu. Setiap hal itu ada pro dan kontranya..secara peribadi aku jadi sedih waktu ngeliat ada berita TKI (Tenaga Kerja Indonesia) yang di siksa ama majikan di Malaysia, ya sadis lah, kok ada orang yang nggak punya kemanusiaan, geram juga sih sebagai rakyat Malaysia kepada rakyat Malaysia yang perilakunya begitu, tapi di satu sisi, aku sedih juga bila dengar dan liat berita soal ada rakyat Indonesia yang melakukan jenayah di Malaysia, suatu waktu dulu ada kejadian Ibu rumah tangga yang dibunuh oleh TKI di Kuala Lumpur.

Nah! begitu juga soal Manohara ini. Dalam hati sih sedih kerna baca komentar-komentar dari Indonesian dan Malaysian, ada yang berantem, ada yang saling tuduh bangsa yang mana nggak bagus, actually kita nggak perlu kayak gitu, Indonesia, Malaysia dan Singapore itu masih satu rumpun, di bilang Malaysia ini nggak bagus, toh masih ada rakyat Indonesia yang bekerja cari nafkah dan hidupnya baik-baik aja di Malaysia, dibilang Indonesia nggak bagus, rame juga Malaysian yang tinggal di Indonesia dan hidupnya baik-baik juga. Well it all about how we handle our opinion, nggak ada yang sempurna di dunia ini di mata manusia, itupun oleh kerna hasil tangan manusia juga. Dunia ini gedik dan luas sekali, di luar sana ada banyak lagi bahasa, budaya, dan bangsa. Kalu punya peluang, jelajahlah ke luar dari negara kita sendiri, bergaulah dengan bangsa-bangsa yang berbeda dari bangsa kita, pasti persepsi kita terhadap satu-satu bangsa berubah, begitu juga cara kita menilai. Satu hal lagi, cara kita menilai apa yang kita dengar dan lihat dari media itu sangat penting kerna media itu besar pengaruhnya. Manusia itu mudah terpicu emosi, kalu yang didengarnya buruk dan jelek terus, maka buruklah kejadiannya biarpun dia nggak ada ditempat kejadiannya, cuma nebak-nebak dan emosi doank.

Aku percaya sekali kuasa hukum itu pasti bisa berjalan dengan benar, baik Manohara ataupun Tengku, sebagai orang yang hanya mendengar, melihat dan menbaca berita, aku tetap ikut perkembangan kes mereka, cuma dalam hati tetap berdoa, biarlah terungkap kebenarannya. Kalu bener Manohara teraniaya, biarlah dia dibela selayaknya. Yang tau kebenarannya hanya Tengku , Manohara dan Tuhan. Dan manusia pada akhirnya diadili oleh Tuhan sendiri menurut perlakuannya selama dia hidup. Well..itu aja deh.

6/08/2009

JUST A QUICK & SHORT UPDATE

I have no idea of what story should i write for my new post. Being very busy lately..so, for a very quick update...i just upload this photo..i will be back with a story..

5/31/2009

SOB...SOB..SOB..

For dear dayaks reader...SELAMAT GAWAI..GAYU GURU GERAI NYAMAI..LANTANG SENANG NGUAN MENUA..i hope i spelled it correctly..gosh! i really miss "manuk pansuh". Miss "kek semut"..i miss BBQ pork...wahhhhh!!!!! i can't imagine my family and friends in Sarawak doing visiting, i don't want to imagine those foods...while i'm sitting here in front of my 2 computer..

5/22/2009

THEN YOU LOOK AT ME

I'm am somebody because of the Lord....


Laugh and cry
Live and die
Life is a dream we are dreaming

Day by day
I find my way
Look for the soul and the meaning

Then you look at me
And I always see
What I have been searching for
I'm lost as can be
Then you look at me
And I am not lost anymore

People run
Sun to sun
Caught in their lives ever flowing
Once begun
Life goes till it's gone
We have to go where it's going

And you say you see
When you look at me
The reason you love life so
Though lost I have been
I find love again
And life just keeps on running
And life just keeps on running
You look at me and life comes
From...you

5/14/2009

KUCHING, MY BEAUTIFUL HOMETOWN..

I received an email from my best friend with nice photos attached. She is not a professional photographer but she like to take photos, take a look and enjoy her photos.


Mount Santubong from the highest peak.


Kuching at evening

5/12/2009

DID I FORGOT SOMETHING?

Oh my..i forgot something!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO EVERY MOTHER, TO MOTHER-TO-BE, FUTURE MOTHER AND TO MY MOM..Wish my mother can reduce her workaholic and spend some time to travel around..Love to mom. Happy mother's day to mit & Tina also.. God bless u all abundantly..shower your life with His grace and love.

5/11/2009

NEW HOBBY


yes!! my new hobby was doing a stitching. I find it was interesting to do. Especially when i get my cross stitch done. Yeah!!! feel so happy, currently i finished two simple project, will upload my stitch here later. Well anyway, stitching really require my patient which is hard to train myself into it. After all, i am a working mother. Again, for all the stitcher out there, i'm a new fellow in the club.